Claymore

 I drove Kevin to rehearsal. We talked a bit, and he says that he knows me better than I think. 

[2026 Note: this is a clearly an "I think you are gay" reference. I chose to ignore it, because I was so repressed. But also, what would Kevin have done with that information? Sometimes not responding is the best response.]

We also picked up MB, Pauline and frank. Kevin embarrassed Frank by asking about Bill. Frank said that Bill isn't totally "sure" and Kevin said that he'll have to have a talk to "convert" Bill. 

Right.

Kevin also said that Ronnie is banned from his house since his mother and father found out. That's why Kevi needed a ride--he doesn't have a car because he doesn't work with his Dad any more. He asked Frank if he could borrow his tent. 

Rehearsal was at the Attleboro Chamber of Commerce building. We worked on "Guys and Dolls" and also learned the Jitterbug from Jeanie Harrison. Sue came early and talked to Frank in private. He told us later that she told him she couldn't play piano for the show because of personal problems. He was crushed. 

New faces in the crowd--Sandy Cullen, who has the lead and reminds me of Lori Smith. Ricky Sanzaro, who reminds me of Rick Springfield. Maurine Weiss, who was in Once Upon a Mattress and is NOT pleased with her part, and has told Frank that. Richard Silva, a nice guy and a friend of Coleen's, and Michael Williams, a very nice dude. 

After rehearsal, Steve and Pauline went with me to Mr Gs and had a lot of fun. After that, Steve and I drove around (or Steve did, at least). He showed me a few things, like the place where he first went skinny dipping (since you want to know about me, he said).

Steve said that if he ever wanted to end our friendship, he'd tell me all about himself. 

I doubt it would end our friendship.

On the way home from his house, I ran over a black [DOESN'T SAY]. I felt so bad. I felt so guilty. 

 While Steve went to Boston, I went over to visit Joyce. We went out to eat, and I listened to a hysterical Tom Lehrer album. 

Karen knows a guy who helped Tom Lehrer write his lyrics. 

It was a lot of fun. 

 I had long talks with both Deb Flamand and Pauline today. With Pauline, I made a game out of disproving her theories, but my examples became more and more ludicrous and I finally gave up. 

Tonight I went out with Nancy. We went to Mr. Gs and to Bliss. I saw Lynn and Jenny there. We finally ended up at Frank's.

[2026 note: why do all my entries involve ending up at Frank's? I do not remember visiting him this much!]

I snuck into his cast book to read comments without him knowing. Miss Cobb wrote some mean comments about Steve (''a bit of a pain," and as usual, things about his voice.) and some of the stuff I felt was uncalled for. 

We stayed a while. Frank tried to draft Nancy into doing the play. But, Nancy wanted to leave. She told me later that she's changed. She doesn't fit into the Drama scene any more. 

I drove her home (a first!) and afterwards had a late night talk with Steve. He was depressed and wanted to quit. I told him he wasn't a quitter, he'd better not or else I'd quit the play, too. 

Kevin and Mark came in in the middle of our conversation--it's Kevin's birthday. Talked to Mark a while (he made a comment on Steve). 

[2026 note: kind of an example of vagueposting decades before this was a thing. My recollection is that Mark was comparing my relationship to Steve almost as a couple, which I found flattering.]

I hope I succeed in convincing Steve to stay in, as his presence is very important to me in this play. If he does quit, I will quit, too. It's that simple. 

Talked about other things--his play, his future as Director of the Talent show. I had wanted him to go with Nancy, but he didn't want to for some reason. 

I drove MB and John to where the cast party was, which was at Dick's place. I had maybe two beers and no conversation with Steve before I volunteered to help Coleen get food at Kai Lua, since Dick neglected to get much. 

At Kai Lua, Coleen and I talked about a lot of things, including Jeannie. Both say they bear no ill will, but there seems to be oh-so-much hate! 

After we returned, I asked Steve if he wanted to have that talk now. After gathering a bit of Chinese food, we started outside. The first thing he did was attack the fact that I had four beers, saying that I lied when I said I would never drink again. 

He told me he apologized to Deb (she didn't particularly accept, she told me later) and said that we (Deb and I) weren't that great friends. I never said we were! 

We ended up in Chet's car.; We were talking about a lot of things, like how he was upset last night and how Mr and Mrs Dobro spoke with him. Mr Dobro thinks I'm gay now. Well, fuck him.

[2026 Observation: Mr. Dobro was absolutely correct, of course. Or at least, bisexual but very repressed.]

Well, things got more and more intense and I started to cry. Steve turned the lights on, and I turned away. 

"Maybe I want to see you cry," he said. 

I dried my tears and we pursued another topic--Chet. I said I was a bit jealous, and he said, "well, at least I know I can trust Chet. That he won't hit me when I turn my back on him." (which I did when while practicing my dance during Intermission.). And, won't be angry with him every five minutes. 

And the tears fell again, because I knew I was right. 

"You can turn the lights on again if you want to see real tears," I said to him in the dark.

And he was right...I am such a faggot. 

And he knows how insecure I am. He says people have been saying how I have changed, become different, almost defeated. 

So I said, "Well, you know the person who defeated me really well." 

He knew I was really upset. I wanted him to know. 

"Well," he said. "I don't want to not be friends with you ever again." 

He suggested a four-day period to think things over, but then said he would call me tomorrow. 

We returned to the party. Had an ice fight that was interesting. 

[2026 note: I am pretty sure that was a sexually charged reference.]

In the meantime, Frank was depressed as he had invited Ronnie to the party hoping to put the move on him. Ronnie and Kevin broke up, and Ronnie hates Kevin now. However, it turns out Ronnie is now taking up with Tracey, in full view of everyone. 

Jason was with Kevin for a while, but as I walked into a side room, I saw Kevin with, of all people, Jackie! I ran out of the room, quickly.

Deb snuck off with Deb, Dave and Sandy somewhere. 

Joyce and Jenay lefty early, sometime during my talk with Steve.

Chet tried to hit on Pauline but didn't succeed. 

Coleen was all over everyone, like Jason and Kevin, and Richard was at the party! 

Christa wasn't home, she was partying somewhere else. 

Chet drove Steve home, and I drove MB, Pauline and John home. We left around 130. 

All in all, a very interesting time. Chet and Frank moped around a bit depressed all evening. 

[2026 Observation: Poor Frank. This was his show! From what I recall, the party got even more interesting after we all left. This was the night I believe David once remarked that he ended up naked in the living with a "bunch of gay guys and Debbie." I probably have that recorded somewhere.]

Today I had a small fight with Princess because I thought she was becoming friends with Steve. But she knew I was mad and also knew why, and of course we patched things up. 

 Spent most of the day in the theater with Deb and Frank picking out songs to do for the entertainment section of the Induction. I finally decided on "Climb Every Mountain" and Deb Flamand's thinking of "Sensitivity." 

I got her out of 7th period today even if her teacher, Mrs. Cook, had quite a few snide remarks about it (she is head of the Talent Show).

After school we had a practice for Passges, which is going to be a song sung by the seniors at graduation, not to be confused with the class ode, which is a song written by Allison, with music by Frank. (Frank asked me, but I never came through. Still, I was pissed.) 

Line up: Allison, Lori Hustler, Sue Leach, Marie Louise Schilling, Deb Manson, Pauline, MB, Deb Flam, Frank, Jon Young

It went okay, and the song is nice. 

MB, Pauline and I worked quite a bit with Mr. Bunten on ending for Climb Every Mountain. 

Marie Louise Schilling is in Passages. She is a sweetheart, an exchange student who was also in Anything Goes. 

I walked to school with Frank and we met Deb Flamand there. She was working on her speech for the graduation, as she has been selected to speak. Miss Cobb is helping her. Deb gave me a ride to my house afterwards.

 I rode to the high school, as there was a "Passages" rehearsal. When I arrived at the band room, Deb F. was there to let me in. She was busy writing out her speech and wasn't supposed to let me in, but did, anyway. She took my yearbook, which I had given to Mr. Bunten and destroyed all the David Fuller pictures in it. She also tried to burn a copy of Passages, but I didn't let her. 

After school we let Steve and Jenny in. They're thinking of directing a One Act together next year. Personally, I think Steve should do it on his own. 

Dr. Olivier came in soon after Jenny left. He asked Steve what he was doing in there and Steve said "None of your business." Dr. Olivier got pissed and tried to throw Steve out. 

The Passages rehearsal ended up being cancelled as Mr. Bunten had the junior high school students practicing for our graduation in the theater with him and Frank was at home. MB said he was "upset." So, MB, Pauline and I stayed to watch the Junior High for a while. 

I was with Steve for a bit. Nancy and Ric are fighting again and Steve said, "Is it over me, as usual?" Such conceit!